Monday, November 30, 2009
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Thursday, November 12, 2009
Kaylee is our first born daughter. She is 8 years old going on 30. Kay is very much a type-A personality. She likes order, rules, schedules and structure and does not do well in the gray area. She is much like her mother and much like her father.
Kay enjoys piano and gymnastics. She is a great student and loves to read. She is my helper whenever I need it and for the most part is nice to her brother.
Kaylee had wanted a little sister from the beginning. Though, at one point she did say that she wanted a brother because then maybe Cannon would quit wrestling her and wrestle him.
Kaylee will be a great big sister to Grace. She can teach her about being a girly girl, play games with her, play baby dolls. Oh, what fun they will have!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
You wanted to know.... Here are the kids responses to us telling them about their new little sister.
Kaylee was so excited. She really wanted a little sister! On the way home, her thoughts started going crazy. She asked "What color are we going to paint her room?" then followed with "we have so much to do!" This is a girl after my own heart :). Getting excited for all the little details that we need to do before we bring Gracie home.
Cannon was excited too. He seemed to take after his father with a quiet excitement. He did gaze at little Gracie's picture for awhile. He did say on the way home "I wanted a brother so that we could wrestle." I then reminded him that he will need to be strong and protect Gracie. He will be her big brother. On the couch yesterday, we were looking at Gracie's picture. I told Cannon, "You both have brown eyes, you match!" He then followed with "and we have the same color hair!" So, I think he is definitely coming around to having a little sister.
We are all just so excited that we know who our child is. Her face is stuck in my head and I just can't get it out. I think of her by name now and look at her sweet picture multiple (MULTIPLE) times a day! And as Kaylee said, we have so much to do!
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
So coming back to our room, I open my email one last time. I start taking care of a few things while waiting for it to load. My phone rings. Heidi, another adoptive mom, calls. I tell Ryan to “ANSWER IT!”. He does and says “It’s Heidi.” I had a wave of emotion come over me because I know the reason she would be calling would be because the referrals had started to come. I had asked for someone in our group to call me because we would be traveling most of the day on Monday. (Thank you so much Heidi for calling!!!)
I run to my computer and look. Sure enough, at 9:13 am (4:13pm Kigali time), the Minister sent us our “Adoptee Matching File.” I immediately open the email, see the letter from the minister, continuing to scroll down to see a picture. A beautiful picture of a sweet little girl. She is dressed in a white flowy dress and sandals that are too small for her feet. Her hair is cut short, real short. Her eyes are beautiful. A deep brown that have a shine. She has full lips and sweet little cheeks. I say to Ryan “How old is she, what is her name?” We scroll back up to the letter from the Minister. Ryan finds her given name. Emotions over take me at this point and I am so excited that I can barely stand it. Even as I type this my heart rate is accelerating and I am getting all excited again.
Her name is Grace (Rwandan Name) Smith. We will call her Gracie (Ryan says that he will call her Grace but I have a feeling he will end up caving and calling her Gracie too). She seems to be around 3 years old. The file with her details didn’t come through. I am hoping to have that information soon. Ryan has spent some time trying to figure out how old she is. She was pictured in front of a brick wall. He thinks the bricks are 2.5 inches tall and she is about 11 bricks which would be 36 inches. He then went online to look at growth charts and says that according to the charts she could be around 2 years old or up to 4 years old based on age and percentiles.
We are both overjoyed with our new daughter. Ryan is quietly showing his excitement and I am bouncing off the walls, dancing, clapping, smiling from ear to ear. This is one of the moments we have been waiting for for almost 13 months. This is the moment were we become parents of 3 children. This is the moment when God has completed our family (for the time being).
We are not allowed to post her picture until she is legally ours, which will hopefully be in a few weeks. Here is a picture that I took yesterday. I took a walk by myself down the beach. I prayed, watched the waves crash, and was in just awe of His creation. I wrote all of our names in the sand....here is HER name.
*this picture was taken on the beach at Boca Raton...before we knew who she was.
Monday, November 9, 2009
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Friday, November 6, 2009
The word on the blog street is that the referrals for 12 families will come Friday (today) or early next week. I know better than to expect this to happen. If you refer to the post from yesterday, Ryan has reminded me of how many times I have heard of something going to happen and then it doesn’t.
Because from my head to my toes I am an optimist, I hope that we receive our referral in the time frame we have heard. Hope to post some good news soon!
Thursday, November 5, 2009
As we were driving to the airport today, I asked Ryan to help me come up with a “d” subject. Some of his suggestions were “delusional”, “disconnected from reality”, and ”“disillusioned.” And for those of you who know my husband, this will not surprise you. Ryan calls himself a realist. I call him a pessimist.
Ryan helps me to keep realistic expectations. When I get all excited about some blog buzz, he not so sweetly brings me back down to earth. There have been so many times throughout this adoption process that things have not gone as planned. So many times where someone would say something would be done by a certain time and then it isn’t done when they said it would be. Ryan expects this. I am crushed by this.
We are getting so close to having our child home from Rwanda. We are getting so close to seeing their little face and knowing who they are. We are totally devoted to this child and are dependent on God to see us through the rest of this journey.
We did get confirmation that the courts will close in Rwanda on December 5th and will stay closed through December. Please join our family in prayer that our referral comes in the next few days, that a court date is set for before December 5th, and that God continues to guide us with his strength and love.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Cannon is our (soon to be) middle child. He is very sweet, loving, energetic, and ALL BOY! He is very funny and alot of the time the rest of us look at each other and say "where did he come from?" He does not have the same personality as Ryan, myself or Kay. He comes up with the craziest things and is very, very imaginative.
Here is a picture of Cannon when he got my camera. He said he wanted to take some pictures of himself. These pictures totally capture his personality.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
You see, I have loved our child since we began this journey. It is a love that has grown stronger and deeper each day that passes. I feel no different towards Kaylee and Cannon then I do towards our Rwandan child. There are no walls that divide my love. My heart overflows with love for each of my children. My heart aches to know our Rwandan child. My heart yearns to be with them.
Here is a question I would pose to people that think the above statement is true, if you have multiple biological children, do you love any of them more or less than the other?
In my opinion, love does not know how a child came to your family. Love doesn't know skin color. Love doesn't know blood family from God's family. I don't think that God's love is biased...he loves us, his adoptive children, as much as he loves Jesus, his only biological son.
Monday, November 2, 2009
/ænˌtɪsəˈpeɪʃən/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [an-tis-uh-pey-shuhn] –noun
1. the act of anticipating or the state of being anticipated.
2. realization in advance; foretaste.
3. expectation or hope.
4. previous notion; slight previous impression.
5. intuition, foreknowledge, or prescience.
There is some unofficial information that something might just happen this week. I am not counting on it....but there is a sense of anticipation (#3) stirring within me. Trying to suppress it.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Well, November is National Blogging month (I have recently learned). Bloggers are to blog every day for the month of November. I think I will try it! I love blogging and enjoy reading other people's blogs. It is definitely therapy....cheap therapy! In order to have something to blog about every day, I think that I will blog the alphabet. Meaning, tomorrow, I will blog with a subject that starts with "A" then the next day "B", and so on and so on. This will be fun. And I need a little bit of fun! Ryan keeps asking me why I am moody (even though he really knows why) so this will be a good way to keep my spirits up every day! So tomorrow it will start....the letter A. Hmmm...