With adoption #2, we hurried up with our training so that it was done. We hurried up our home study so it was done. We (really me, I dragged Ryan along) did alot of hurrying hoping that others would too.
Have I mentioned before that I am not good with patience?
We are waiting to here back that our adoption resource file is open. Our training was done in mid-December. Our homestudy was done first of January. Now we are just waiting on our file. This sweet little file that is alot like our dossier with Grace. It has everything about us and our family in a file. Once this is open, we can be matched with a child. This will happen at a meeting in March or we can go in and look through the waiting children to see if there is anyone who might fit our family.
Part of my impatience is this: there may not be a child thats right for our family. If this is the case, then I want to know. I want to be able to move on, put adoption #2 on the back burner for awhile. Stop wondering every day if our family will grow. Stop thinking about who this child is, what their story is, what they look like. I just need to know. I am a planner. I like to complete tasks (ie nest). I don't do well with decisions hanging in the air.
Either way we will continue to wait. Wait on this little thing called a file...